Man,sometimes i have the same problem(i'm depressed)!When i go out with my friends,sometimes(not very often) they make jokes on me!But after all,there should be something good for us!Don't worry,god is thinking at all of us!He gave you a hard life but he will reward you as you deserve!Just take a break,play some sports,do something funny,that you know it relax you!Good luck bro,and im really sorry for you loses!You are very a strong man!If my dad was gone,i was going to suicide myself!
Sorry to hear on your family loss it's the most painful feeling , you did right with deleting the game if it's influnece on you, and always remember you are the one who dictates your way of life and action's dont let anyone dictate it for you